Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Stressed Relievers

Since last friday or so, my eating pattern has just gone out the window and I am really struggling with stress, anxiety and consequently eating. I had this last year, and it is very frightening. To lost half a stone (approximately 3 to 4 kilos) in two weeks is also discomforting and I wish not to go through it again... I have a lot of work not studio-related that I need to do but when I work on my sculptures and projects, it is in my free time where I allow myself to unwind.

I am feeling very hungry but too stressed to eat as I type this and the fear of me losing more weight is also making the stress worse. I know that this blog is for my studio bits and bobs but sometimes it is better to talk about your feelings and make them known. Mental health is very overlooked these days and I sometimes feel my problems go unnoticed when I am seriously struggling. It feels right now that my projects are keeping me going!! This phase will pass soon but right now I am not feeling comfortable. :-(

I worked on Gallega some more on Sunday night, I have been refining her mane and she is really starting to look like the elegant little lady she is meant to be, now. Her profile is annoying me still slightly and so she is still far from being complete, I still seek constructive criticism on her...
I am very pleased with her progress though. My friend I am living with right now suggested how amazing she would look as a unicorn and so when I cast copies of this lady, guess what I will be customising some as!

Speaking of customising, I pulled out a Todd from the box and I worked on him a bit. Just for a bit of fun, I sculpted on a mane that resembles that of a fjord pony. I seem to have a thing for fjord ponies this year!
I used apoxie sculpt, a new batch. my old batch is about two or three years old now and is rock hard, it was such a nice feeling to open a new packet with such soft sculpting material!!
I also plan on repainting these two Schleich models to represent the Fjord pony. I told you I seem to be obsessed with them at the moment!!
I thank you for letting me vent a little, now I have to get on with some coursework that is due for Friday...

Clare

2 comments:

  1. I wish I could give you some encouraging advice or wisdom about the anxiety and eating, but everyone is so different. What I can tell you is that you're not alone. I got back into the model horse hobby largely because I needed a sitting down activity to distract me from stress and depression. I wish you the best in your journey toward mental and physical health.

    Gallega is looking beautiful and will make a very noble unicorn! And Todd makes an excellent Fjord too. Lovely work.

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  2. *hugs*

    Gallega is looking lovely :)

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